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Sanity Saver

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I felt I was losing my sanity yesterday. It was a blow to my pride. I have walked the tightrope of sanity in the past, but surely I was above that now.

Argh.

It’s folly to think I have immunity to trauma and suffering. Humility realizes stuff could happen today. My questions for myself are – Will I react or act? Will I remember that I am loved by God? Will I remember that He is my rock, my place of safety and stability?

Have I set myself up to remember these things and act from them? I thought I had, but my first response yesterday was that I must quit, run, and hide.

A movie came to mind that spoke peace to my fears – 50 First Dates. Due to brain trauma, the movie’s heroine was stuck in time. By the movie’s end, she was brought into the present each morning through a loving reminder of who she had become and the safety that surrounds her. I need that reminder too.

“He alone is my safe place; his wrap-around presence always protects me. For he is my champion defender; there’s no risk of failure with God. So why would I let worry paralyze me, even when troubles multiply around me?…God said to me once and for all, ‘All the strength and power you need flows from me!’ And again I heard it clearly said, ‘All the love you need is found in me!'” (Psalm 62:2, 11-12a TPT)

I love this life.

Copyright 2018 Leah Lambert Smith
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Knowledge of Good and Evil

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I am not a Bible scholar. I don’t pretend to know enough to teach or preach, but I do have questions that I ask Holy Spirit. Today I am asking about the knowledge of good and evil.

God told Adam that he was not to eat of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil (Gen. 2:17). Eating its fruit, taking it into himself so that it becomes a part of him, would affect the way he would perceive, discern, understand…the way he would see good and evil (Strong’s H3045).

The writer of Genesis records that their own nakedness was the first thing Adam and Eve saw as evil, so they covered themselves with fig leaves (Gen 3:7). The next thing Genesis reveals that they saw as evil was an encounter with God, so they hid from Him (Gen 3:8).

Adam and Eve’s circumstances had not changed. The change was in the perception of their hearts (their thoughts and feelings). That which they now saw as problematic was in their life before they ate the forbidden fruit; that is, both before and after they ate the fruit, they were naked, and they had encounters with God. The serpent had said they would change to be like God (Gen 3:5), but they had always been like God; they were made in His likeness and image (Gen. 1:26).

Seeing the world through a lens of good and evil opened the door to fear. I do not want to invite fear into my thoughts, feelings, and thereby my creative words (Luke 6:45). How can I turn this around? I can direct my thoughts and feelings to perfect love. Perfect love casts out fear (1 John 4:18).

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things. (Phil. 4:6-8 NKJV)

I love this life.

Copyright 2018 Leah Lambert Smith
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Moving Forward

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How will we continue to view those who hurt us, those who have used their power against us through fear and abuse? I do not want the subject of #MeToo to trigger discomfort in men. I do not want them to walk on eggshells, their hearts and souls withdrawn. I’ve seen it happen, and I know the feeling all too well. It’s not knowing what to say, not knowing how to respond in territory where one feels like prey.

Unforgiveness, anger, hatred, and fear are forces that keep wounds inflamed. Hurts cannot heal; pain cannot diminish. Can the greater forces of understanding and forgiveness be released instead? Is redemption possible for the men who have been called out, those seen as the face of that which we are against? Do we allow healing?

These are questions regarding our views of all kinds of prejudice and abuse. Can we move forward to a place of unity, a place of honor and integrity for all?

Who would benefit from our retreat?

I am finding that releasing forgiveness and love into the world returns to me as forces above and beyond all I could ask or think. I receive not only healing, but am catapulted into freedom’s love, joy, peace, kindness, faith…I love this life.

 

Copyright 2018 Leah Lambert Smith
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Look for the Way Out

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“For no temptation (no trial regarded as enticing to sin), [no matter how it comes or where it leads] has overtaken you and laid hold on you that is not common to man [that is, no temptation or trial has come to you that is beyond human resistance and that is not adjusted and adapted and belonging to human experience, and such as man can bear]. But God is faithful [to His Word and to His compassionate nature], and He [can be trusted] not to let you be tempted and tried and assayed beyond your ability and strength of resistance and power to endure, but with the temptation He will [always] also provide the way out (the means of escape to a landing place), that you may be capable and strong and powerful to bear up under it patiently.” (1 Cor 10:13 AMPC)

God has provided a way out of temptations and trials. The way of freedom may be a path out of the situation, or it may be walking through the situation as Jesus carries the load. Yoked with Him, I have great powers of endurance, because where I am weak, He is strong.

This is God’s grace, His power to accomplish through me that which I cannot accomplish on my own. I need not compromise or fear when trials come; God loves me.

Here is the same verse from The Passion Translation: “We all experience times of testing, which is normal for every human being. But God will be faithful to you. He will screen and filter the severity, nature, and timing of every test or trial you face so that you can bear it. And each test is an opportunity to trust him more, for along with every trial God has provided for you a way of escape that will bring you out of it victoriously.” (1 Cor 10:13 TPT)

Today, I am praying this verse over a legal case. Lord, give each person involved with this case clear vision to see Your way of freedom.

God’s path bestows hope, honor, and love to all.

I love this life.

Copyright 2018 Leah Lambert Smith
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Thinking Higher Thoughts

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“For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord. “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isa. 55:8-9 NKJV)

For years these verses in Isaiah 55 were used to explain why I could not understand the things of the Lord while I was on earth. I was told I could ask questions after I died and went to heaven. Today these verses don’t speak such limitations to me at all. Reading these verses in context, I hear an invitation to live the Lord’s  higher thoughts and ways.

The beginning of Isaiah 55 reads, “Ho! Everyone who thirsts, Come to the waters; And you who have no money, Come, buy and eat. Yes, come, buy wine and milk Without money and without price. Why do you spend money for what is not bread, And your wages for what does not satisfy? Listen carefully to Me, and eat what is good, And let your soul delight itself in abundance.” (Isa. 55:1,2 NKJV) This is a beautiful picture of friendship with the Lord. As I spend time communing with Him, listening carefully, my thoughts and ways change. They rise to become more like His thoughts and ways. My soul delights in the abundance that He offers.

Putting the Lord’s thoughts and ways into action has led me on beautiful adventures. For example, I was reading 1 Corinthians 13 and got stuck when I read that love thinks the best. I asked the Lord – What is the best I can think of people? His answer was simple, profound, brilliant, and a major paradigm shift for me; the best I can think is that they love me the way He does. This offered me a new way to live.

I can know the thoughts and ways of the Lord. He keeps them to share with me; He does not keep them from me. I can seek the Lord’s wisdom at any time, asking questions and hearing His stories. In Him, there are always higher heights to soar.

Holy Spirit, when my thoughts are negative or when they follow the crowd, please remind me to lift my thoughts higher.

I love this life.

Copyright 2018 Leah Lambert Smith
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Counting It Joy

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I sometimes forget the heaviness and darkness of the trauma I carried. I forget how it can stir things in others when I share it so easily now. For me, it is like saying, I tripped while running through the woods yesterday, but today the bruise is gone. God wants me to tell my story, and I need to learn the best way to do that. The darkness I felt is so overcome by the light, I speak of the bad with a smile because I am living such good.

I am convinced that God’s will is to turn evil things to good. He has provided the good whether we believe and receive it or not. A friend of mine once said that her idea of God turning an evil to good was something she would look back and realize years down the road. One day it occurred to her that God’s goodness is always alive and active, and she wanted to see the good as she went through the bad. She wanted to be encouraged during the journey. So I pray this for you today –  that you experience the good that God is bringing about as you walk through every trial.

This reminds me of some verses that once made me cringe but that I now love –
“My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.” (James 1:2-4 NKJV)

I love this life.

Copyright 2018 Leah Lambert Smith
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Turned to Good

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I was just talking to the Father about some trauma I experienced, and I wrote this. As I read it, I felt I should share it with you:

“God takes that meant for evil and turns it to good (Genesis 50:20 – story of Joseph). This is seen in the spirit realm and is counterfeited. The enemy/thief/accuser/opposer takes this kingdom principle and warps it. He tries – through deception – to take that which is good and turn it to evil. Of course God can then turn it to good again, and that good is exceeding abundantly above all we can ask or think. He catapults the good into the stratosphere and far beyond to where there are no limits to restrain it.”

I have seen this happen recently regarding a rape that happened when I was a teen and regarding abuse that happened to me as an infant. As a result of such trauma, loving myself and others was hard for me. However, the inner healing I have received has brought me to love myself, the rapist, and the pedophile. The fact that shattered pieces of my heart and soul have been and are being healed, fills me with hope and love for everyone, especially those I judged before as being unlovable. I now intercede with prayers of love and mercy. Everyone has endured some level of trauma; I pray that all have the strength and courage to run after God’s health and freedom.

My “good” is that my thoughts and words go to love. This good is exceeding abundantly above all I could ask or think. I knew that God set us up to love because God’s love has been poured into our hearts (Romans 5:5), but I had no idea it could be like this! God turns evil to good. He catapults the good into the stratosphere and far beyond to where there are no limits to restrain it.

I love this life.

Copyright 2018 Leah Lambert Smith
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